Where have all the morals gone?

To be honest, when Anonymous commented on "A Smokers Always a Smoker When The Chips Are Down" when she (I know it's a she) said, " I'm sure you remember standing at that guys death bed, with only one lung and refusing to quit smoking" I wasn't sure what she was talking about. Then all of a sudden it hit me like a truck.

All these memories started flooding back to me. I remembered the smoke filled house, the guy, his mom, and even their dog. I remember playing outside with those little helicopter things that fall from trees. (Ya know, the things you can throw and they spin down) But most of all, I remember vowing never to smoke, which got me thinking. I remember all my "I will never..."s. Where have all the morals gone?

Maybe it's like those little helicopter things. It's a downward spiral. It starts out high, just like your hopes and falls down onto the dirty ground of realism. Or maybe, we are just floating until we figure out who we are, and where we want to land.

I am a Fag Enabler

Is that not the saddest thing you have ever seen? This poor little kid being dragged into this. This is at a protest outside of a fallen soldiers funeral. This group believes that all these people that died, did so because of our tolerance towards the gay community. (Right? Because we are so tolerant toward the gay community, aren't we?) And people who condone this are "fag enablers."

The leader of this church said that all people that died in the pentagon were probably "fags" and "dykes."

When did people become so concerned with who and who isn't going to hell? If I am going to burn in hell, that's my business. No one else's.

I am just so disturbed that anyone could have the audacity to protest a military funeral. This isn't something new to me, I've seen this before but I every time it just shakes me to the core. I don't have any family (or friends for that matter) in Iraq, and though I don't believe that war is the answer I still 100% support the people that fight in it. They need our support not our hatred.
And seriously, like the family isn't going through enough pain and suffering. The last thing they need is a bunch of inbred baptists trying to force feed their regurgitated beliefs down these grieving families throats.

Eh, I guess you can't have baptism without brainwashing.

"A Smokers Always a Smoker When The Chips Are Down"

Quitting smoking wasn't hard for me. It wasn't he nicotine I was addicted to, it was the consistency of it. Something stable when it felt like the rest of the world was crashing down. Though I remain in good health, I can see why someone (not me) would be willing to gamble their health away.

Not much stays the same, we are in a world that is constantly changing, evolving. We change everything- jobs, cars, styles, and most of us haven't been in a relationship that hasn't ended. And though you can't change your family they can certainly change on you.

Don't get me wrong. Change is often a good thing, but whether it's good or bad it's easy to be scared of. You will never be scared a cigarette is going to leave you, or that something hurt it. You will never love a cigarette.

This isn't just a poor girl trying to make excuses for her vices. This is just a changing girl trying to make sense of them.

A Cycle is a Cycle is a Cycle

I am frustrated and exhausted writing by dim light. I am aching for a cigarette, and I could use a stiff drink so bad I can almost smell the sour intoxication of whiskey. I just spent the last 45 minutes in my computer chair reading over old writing. A preservation of the past. Old note books, old blogs, anything I could get my hands on as long as I produced it. An undeniable narcissism. Stuck in my past, staring at pages stiffened with age, I see no advancement. Am I in Limbo?

I think about my accomplishments and wonder why it seems to be a never ending cycle. Even if I am not living it directly, I still feel like I am seeing it. A peripheral delusion.

Realizing, though I am incredibly flawed, that I am not entirely to blame. Realizations come through repetition, and in these old pages I see uncomfortable patterns. The focus of my complaints have landed on the same certain people, and I have finally found advancement in something. And though my complaints stay the same they have progressed into something more intelligent. A whining more thought out.

Who knows? Maybe it isn't me who is stuck in Limbo.

Dragons = Homosexuals

Since no one can take responsibility for their own actions there has been an ongoing attempt to blame others. Ya know, "It's not my fault I'm fat! McDonalds shouldn't make their burgers so tasty.." It's just ridiculous people being ridiculous people. With that said, what is our favorite thing to blame? Games! But not just any game. There is the one demon game that started it all: Dungeons and Dragons.

"After playing Advanced-Dungeons & Dragons, Marilyn Manson, the lesbian shock-rocker satanist, was inspired to build his own dungeon. Since the perverted rock-star was not able to obtain dragons, he populated it with the next-best thing: Homosexuals."

Dragons are equal to homosexuals.

Also quoted from the same site..

"D&D is called a “Role Playing Gaime” because players are encouraged to consider-alternative lifestyles, particularly gender-swapping. Men may play as women, and women play as men, having ‘adventures’ which quickly degrade into sex-orgies.

Dungeon-Masters encourage players to ‘act’ their part as much as possible. Most gaming sessions will involve nudity and copious actual or simulated gay-sex."

Now let me tell you, I am nerdy enough to have played D&D, and quite frankly.. It's the best sex I've ever had. Oh baby, I get so turned on when you talk about your +12 Staff. ;)

And yet there is more..

"STR FACT FILE: Has ‘Dungeons and Dragons’ been positively identified with ritual abuse and death? Yes. When players ‘die’ in D&D the game requires them to submit to some sort of forfeit- which usually involves some form of sexual humiliation but might involve committing a theft or murder."

That is EXACTLY right. Sexual humiliation at it's best. Last time I died, my dungeon master spit on me and called me scum, right before he tied me up to engage in some serious BDSM. - I still have whip marks to prove it.

I've said this once to your kind (that being ridiculous Right-Wings) and I will say it again. KNOCK IT THE FUCK OFF...

It's not just that you're ignorant it's that you're slowing down evolution, you stupid douches. We are taking ONE GIANT step BACKWARDS.

Praise be to Darwin. ;)

"I kissed a girl and I liked it"

So gay marriage is officially legal in California. One more state down. =)

It's nice to see your side losing. =)

Holy Delusion Batman!

Okay. Here is an update.



After some un-Christian-like words from a certain slutty, Warrior Jodie, I decided to comment this.



"Wow, what intelligent words. I have never heard a REAL Christian speak like such a slut."



Hehe.. To which Miss Warrior Jodie responded:

"Look here you piece of TRASH dont you EVER call me a slut. Just because I have a healthy NORMAL desire like any attractive woman SHOULD don’t make me a slut. You are probably just fat and ugly and ain’t had a penis near your dried up old twat in so long you got cobwebs."



Which is just SO true. I am so glad that she got all that from my one comment. I have never felt so connected to someone.



I also got a threatening response from someone named Deb.. Which goes something like that "Got some nerve calling people names like that when you don’t even know them. I guarantee you wouldn’t say anything like that about my friends to my face and be standing to tell about it."

Now, that is really harsh. I didn't say that I was a good Christian either though. I don't claim to be a good Christian girl, and then BRAG about being slutty. So, ya know, there's that.

And just for my readers amusement. I found this on their website as well:

"EVERY BODY knows that queers just want to spit in the Lords sweet face and that they don’t really care if they are married or not. It is all a big show so they can RUIN real marriages and piss off good CHRISTIAN people. They hate Jesus and they hate ANY THING in the bible so they figure before they go to HELL for being preverts they can mess things up for decent people. "

RIGHT! EVERYBODY knows.. That is exactly right.

Oh, and just for the record boys and girls:

I HOPE GAYS GET MARRIED.

Thanks. ;)